Silly

Do you love me?

Why would you want to be with someone who shares none of your same interests?

I'm nothing special.

I'm gonna be a disaster every day.

I don't know how I made it through.

Enormous.

I don't know how, I need help, I'm scared to x, y, z . . .

The words we tell ourselves shape our perception of ourselves and in turn, influence how others interpret who we are. I've said every one of these lines and more within the past week, and reflecting on it now I couldn't help but think, "how silly".

Not stupid, not disappointing, but silly.

I'm not going to sit here and reprimand myself for questioning and comparing, but I am going to recognize the pattern and work to treat it in an effective and positive way.

I am going to challenge my competencies and confront the negative self concepts of self worth that I've been telling myself in an attempt to protect my head and my heart. I am going to remind myself just how effective I am in life, how much of an individual I am. I am going to admire how much love and loyalty I show to the world, and how strong I have become through often unrecognized circumstances of courage.

For every moment of uncertainty, there is certainty.

For every ounce of emptiness, there is fullness.

For every aching of unhappiness, there is happiness.

It's up to us though to find these paradoxes.

Life is hypocritical: what we want, what we have, and what we get, will never fit like a puzzle. Our emotions are like a biological whirlpool, jumbled together, ambiguous while constricting, fleeting while permanently controlling. And our mind's are like an untrained puppy, a clean slate ready and willing to take direction, oozing with potential for betterment. Understand that you are not alone in your despairs and recognize that in accepting the wordly hypocrisies, the convolution of emotions, and the indefinite capabilities of your mind, you have the ability to confront your struggles and alter your persqective.

Life is a constant work-in-progress. Just when we believe we have an answer, a new variable comes along, making hesitation inevitable. So stop worrying, stop ruminating, and stop instigating. In order to be open to change and allow ourselves to thrive in uncertainty we must establish and maintain a stable self concept, one that promotes who we are rather than claws at our insecurities.

So learn your story with an open heart, and learn to LOVE that story;

it's the only way to grow.