"Don't know who you are, but I'd dive into your ocean"

You know when you know absolutely nothing about the details of a person's life,

but you know the person, as a person?

You know when this stranger has some mystifying effect on you

that you can't even describe, a feeling that is

overpowering but not consuming,

aching but not exasperating.

You know when this stranger's presence gives you what you need,

or at least, what you think you need?

When this stranger, simply through his existence,

wiggles his way into your mind and taints your thoughts?

When he gives you a reason to color these thoughts,

he adds glitter to your picture,

and it is suddenly an image that is on the cusp of becoming?

And then you trust, you invest, you rely - you fall.

I do.

But on the way down I forgot to remember that this stranger, is still a stranger...

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You asked me what was different about you from anyone else...

What was different about you is why I couldn't shake you.

I was hurt from the past 🐷, drowning in commitments 🛁, and emotionally stretched 🚨,

but I was still invested in you.

I told you that I thought you understood me, but I think it's more like I thought I understood you.

> > > I meshed with you quick because I was honest with you.

> > > I appreciated you because I was accepting of you in totality.

> > > & I entertained the idea of us because I was willing to step outside of my comfort zone.

I know I didn't make up this reciprocation in my mind, but I think it came with

less

[honest vulnerability]

and more

[transient lust]

from you.

What you were to me was what I was missing, in myself and in my past. I've thought about this for a while, and it's funny that I still can't pinpoint what exactly this missing piece is. Maybe it's a feeling, one of support, encouragement, or reliability. Maybe it's a state you invoked within me, like stability or competence. Maybe it's just the thrill of you as a person.

What I do know though is that at a time in my life you played the role of the missing puzzle piece,

and I established trust and accountability in your presence.

I think those attributes made you more real to me - those attributes made you different from anyone else.

& you're super hot.