I, We, Love You Mommy

I'm sitting here in this new house, with a twin bed in the corner of an empty room, an ice pack tied to milk to keep it cold for the morning, allergies going insane from the dust of the new floor, & worst of all, no coffee.

But, I'm here.

Why?

Because you are here.

I've never heard more excitement in your voice than when you called me two days ago & said

"the house is ready, we can move in tonight!"

I walked into our current house that night, boxes everywhere, drawers emptied, Nicole in a full arm splint & Nina prancing around while her new boyfriend tried to figure out what is wrong with us.

But it's an easy condition to diagnose:

My family finished a house that was 40% done on Friday, on Monday, my sisters heard the news, & the expedited packing began, and I listened to your voice in that phone call, thought of the incredible acts of kindness and selflessness occurring within my family, all to make you happy, & cried the entire way home from joy.

Love is so obscure, & it is presented in such different magnitudes that it's hard to determine the difference between it and obligation, or even charity. I've always liked to attach it to another word, a more tangible one, or at least tangible in my mind, but I've realized that doing this short changes me of its potential.

Love is a feeling, an overwhelming sensation. It is knowing that I will do everything in my power to make you happy, free from pain and worry. I will support every goal you have through my actions and words & I will be accepting of the honesty & candidness of your thoughts and experiences as I allow you to trust the sincerity of our relationship. I will put myself second in an attempt to make these things happen. And not because I have to, but because I want to.

So I'm sitting here as we share our twin bed in the corner of your empty room,

I challenge myself to live in your shoes & see just how special this moment is.

I look at you & I see the most beautiful person I have ever seen.

You are strong, courageous, & tenacious.

You are loving, compassionate, & honest.

I would do anything for your happiness

because you have blessed my life simply by being.

I believe this is love.

I love you mommy.