Wonder over Worry

"It's time to let go of everything we used to know

Ideas that strengthen who we've been

It's time to cut ties that won't ever free our minds

From the chains and shackles that they're in."

- Patrick Park, Life is a Song My mirror has been covered with pictures, quotes, and memories for years. I knew that I had outgrown this display and that I had moved on to a new chapter of my life, I knew that these memories, as much as they shaped me, they didn't encompass who I am anymore, and with that they kind of held me back. But I looked at my mirror everyday, I loved thinking back about that time in Boston, or that High School Formal, so when I knew I wanted to take everything down, I didn't.

I hesitated for about a year - Knowing exactly what I wanted to do, but worried about what would happen if I actually DID it:

- Would I forget these memories?

- Would I regret it?

- Would I feel empty?

Then, instead of asking myself why I'm WORRIED about the action, I asked what I was WONDERING about it:

- If I took down everything I wonder what it would look like?

- I wonder how I would feel?

- I wonder if eventually I would refill the space?

And these questions left me feeling excited, anticipatory, and autonomous - My decision is up to me, and with that decision, I can feel and act in a way that I truly want to feel and act.

Why should I allow my feelings and actions to be clouded by worry? Then am I living for the things I'm passionate about, or tip toeing around what I really want because I'm worried?

And so, I wondered, and wondering led me here, to a blank slate, a clear state of mind, and a genuinely autonomous decision.